Where are You?

Have you ever gotten to a point where you don't know what else to do? All you do is cry to God, "I need you now!!" You don't know what to pray for.  All you pray for is His will to be done, because you know in your heart of hearts that His will is far better than anything you could ever imagine. I'm at a loss as to what to do with my daughter, she has been manipulated into thinking she doesn't want to live with me. Do you know how much that hurts? And she is acting out so bad. I just KNOW that He has a plan. Some days are so difficult when it seems like everything around you is setting you up for failure. When it feels like the walls are coming down on your life... There is protection in His will and that's where I want to be. I am so thankful for my children, I look at them and am reminded how truly blessed I am to have these pure children how love me.  And then there is my husband, if it wasn't for him, I don't know what I would do with out him.

James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

Romans 5:3-4
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Galatians 6:9 

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

Romans 2:7
To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life.

Hebrews 10:36
You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

1 Chronicles 16:11
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.

Matthew 10:22
All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

Romans 8:28 

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

2 Thessalonians 3:5
May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance.

James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

1 Corinthians 13:6-7
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Timothy 4:16
Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.

Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

2 Peter 1:5-7
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love.

Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

James 5:11
As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.

Hebrews 2:1
We must pay more careful attention, therefore, to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away.

Revelation 2:2-3
I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

Recent goal... Didn't start out as a goal...

So this week instead of turning on the TV while I cook dinner and while we eat I have been paying Kari Jobe on Pandora on my phone... Has it made a difference? I don't know. But I do know as a Christian we must surround ourselves with positive influences because if it comes in our ears it goes to our brain which then controls our thoughts.  I want to meditate 24/7 on God's goodness and His mercy. I want my kids to see that... I want them to want Him... I want them to have a fire for Him... Most days I am a failure but the Bible says we have ALL fallen short (Romans 3:23).  But there is this amazing thing called Mercy! And it is new everyday... So my new goal... Listen to christian music while I am cooking dinner and while we eat every night...

What I once was..

I am in no resemblance of the teenager I once was. I was an awkward girl, who thought that I was a nobody. I rarely talked to anyone that didn't first talk to me. I am not sure what I would have done had I ever gotten in a fight with someone, I probably would have laid down and let them beat up on me. I know that I never stood up for myself.  Now I look at the daughters I am raising, I don't want them to be like that. I want them to be confident and strong in who they are. I want them to be the girl that everyone wants to be friends with. I want them to know that God loves them and that they love God. I want them to not worry about what others think of them. God, let me be an example of You to them.